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Never Gone

2009-06-15T02:13:00.002+08:00

To that someone :

I really miss you, there's something I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said

Keep comin' back to me and make me smile again

You showed me how to face the truth

Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us

Now may seem to be too far

It will never separate us

Deep inside, I know you are

Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close, everyday

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye

I know you would be forever in my life (yeah!)

Never gone

No, no, no, no

I walk along these empty streets

There is not a second you're not here with me

The love you gave, the grace you've shown

Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone

(Somehow) somehow you found a way

To see the best I have in me

As long as time goes on

I swear to you that you will be

Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close (always close), everyday (everyday yeah)

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye

I know you would be forever in my life (in my life, yeah)

Never gone (gone from me)

If there's one thing I believe (I believe)

I will see you somewhere down the road again

(I will see you somewhere, somewhere, somewhere, somewhere)

(Never gone) Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Always close (always close, always close), everyday (everyday, everyday)

Every step along the way

Even though for now we've got to say goodbye (yeah, yeah)

I know you would be forever in my life

Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are (in my heart is where you are)

Always close (always close), everyday (everyday)

Every step along the way

Never gone, never far

In my heart is where you are

Backstreet Boys - Never Gone

I'm Back !

2009-05-31T03:49:00.003+08:00

Hello peeps ! It's been awhile since I last blog. Seriously almost a year. I don't know what got into me giving me that urge to blog back. Buuuutttttt.....I don't know what to write..Sigh.

As you can see, my last post was on Malacca but that was wayyy back. Recently went to Redang (i'm super dark now no joke !) and going to Vietnam for holiday on the 10th of June :)

Hmmm..life's been okay. Oh well, whatever happens we still hafta live rite. Not much have happened this year comparing last year which was soooooo stressful and complicated ! This year is more like go to the flow la. Well, for last year, all I can say is I'm glad for everything that has happened, I appreciate everything we did. It's the past now, I will not attempt to do anything. Don't worry.

What makes me happy this year is that I've completed my freaking Diploma in stupid TAR College and I can finally make my move to Help College which I am very, very excited at the moment ! God knows will I still be excited and energetic after I get there ! Haha ! Well, my case in TAR was super pissed. I onli have one more paper left 2 semester ago. I took the exam, come out from the exam hall knowing that this time I'll confirm pass the damn paper. When the results came out, I was stunned seeing that I got C- instead of C which I need to graduate from that stupid college ! FYI, the difference between C and C- is just 4 bloody marks ! Okay, so I didnt get panic, went over to my head of school and approached Mr.Lee(he's the head of my school)'s secretary. I told her my situation, and she told me to write a letter to Mr.Chuan(Head of Public Relations)and explain to him about my case and she said that IT SHOULDN'T BE A PROBLEM UPGRADING IT ! So I was happy, and I talked to Mr. Chuan and he ask me to look for Ms.Chan(my lecturer). Like wtf. Okayyyy so I listened and I called Ms.Chan to make an appointment. All she can say is, "I can't really help you, all I can do is give u guidelines for your exam, why don't you look for Mr.Chuan ?" Okay Okay ! I go back to Mr.Chuan then ! I called him, and he said "Boy....Look ahh...we can't really upgrade your marks you know....unless you appeal for it maybe got hope(which I did but still the same). If appeal also cannot then you have no choice but to resit it again loh."

I BALIK RUMAH STRAIGHT........

So no choice I resit it again loh. But this time different :) I got what I want ! And yes I'm going for the August intake which is on the 19th and hell yeah I can't wait for it ! See u guys there man ! I know you guys miss me alot ! Gahahahaha.....oh well, I'm done for now. Stay tuned for more updates !

~Malacca Trip~

2008-10-01T02:05:00.019+08:00

Exams finishes and went for a vacation on the 22nd and 23rd of Sept to Malacca with my fellow friends =) Wasn't a bad trip after all. Had a lot of fun ! Especially the night where we were hanging out in our apartment~ xD~

Decided to bring along my 7 zai for a vacation too. Since he stayed in my room for so long. Haha ! He enjoyed a lot too there. A lot people sayang him. xD~

So as usual, she would be cam-whoring here and there. Biasakan saje lah.

My car was screaming for help on the highway. [ click pic to enlarge] ngek ngek.

After one and a half hour driving time, reached A Famosa and we were thinking should we go to the animal park cuz we were actually there for the Water World but unfortunately it closed down for renovation. =.=

Look what you have done ! Told you not to kencing everywhere ! Haha !

And so, we were actually there to visit stupid fella's relatives as she hasn't seen them for quite some time. Sy yeah, we have to pay 50 bucks to get inside just to see her relatives.

Cool t-shirt I had there. With my name on it ! =D !

There were a few animal shows there and i can tell you, stupid fella's relatives memang can perform !

Oh yeah forgot to mention that not only we're there for her relatives. For her boyfriend too. wanna know why ? [Orang Utan] - Yo wassup my nigga black kukujiao. Bwahahaha !

Now you guys know why ! Told you she was there to look at her boyfriend ! Not bad actually, her boyfriend have a stuntman's skills, and also Tiger Woods skills as well ! Yes he can play Golf !

Gu Wong aka Lou 9. Check out his nail. xD~

On the way to Monkey Island. If you've guessed right, yeah it's stupid fella's sons, daughters, grandsons, granddaughters and bla bla bla.

This few little fellas here, are damn active and damn greedy. Once you have food with you, they'll follow you the whole island. Luckily they're cute, if not aku awal awal dah baling kat sungai tuh.

He claims to be one of stupid fella's ex. [ She's gonna kill me for all this stories] Haha !

Mua tired face. Haven got enuf sleep the day yesterday and have to drive all the way to A Famosa and look at her relatives. Kesian tau.

This stupid little thing here, super duper LAZY I tell you. Since the time I was there, until the time we left, he is still at this exact same pose and same place. Wtf.

Actually I found them kinda cute at first, cuz once somebody passes by them, they would like beg for food with that cute lil animal tone. But once you've heard for few times, you'll feel like chop slam them. Annoying creatures. =.=

Forced by someone for this pose. Aihs Aihs

A group pic. The lil chicks inside the farm are just toooo cute. =) After A Famosa, went for check in and finally I got to rest for awhile ! Room was not bad. Kinda spacious but it's kinda creepy. Cuz it's like no one staying at the whole damn floor. After some rest, head out to Malacca town to look for...........................................

SATAY CELUP !!!!

Awesomeness to the MAX ! Don't know why I look so chubby here. =.=. Was freaking hungry that I've ate 22 sticks. Haha !

Budak nih. Tau makan aje. Apa pun tak tau.

Aftermath of Satay Celup. Blurppppppppppp~~

Was driving back to our apartment and then realize that there were a lot of stars above the sky. Seriously like a lot ! Can just stare at them all night long. Even more than the previous time I went to Taman Negara. So we stop by at the roadside to have a look at those. Tho we are far apart now, we are still under the same sky. I'm glad I had those times =)

Tengah pandu balik ke apartment.

Started-lah all the cam-whoring again. I'll tell you the amount of pics we took in Malacca after I finish the post. Don't be surprise of the number. =.=

To celebrate our holidays ! First with sparkling juice first !

Goyang goyang goyang goyang goyang, paaaaaaaapppppp........HURRAY !!!!

Eh boss, rilek arr.....aku minum jangan takut, takkan lari punya.

I wonder what's there. Once is enjoying, one stunt-ed, another one laughing. =.= Spot 7 Zai !

Once upon a time, ade lah seorang beruk yang suka pakai baju yang berwarna kuning dan juga suka sangat kat CJ7, dia nih suka sangat lah nak kencing merata-rata tempat pastu lari terus. Dia ingat kita tak nampak so nak cover-cover lah sikit. Tapi dia nih tak pandai cover. Selalu kena kantoi ! Ade juga-lah member dia seorang nih yg jugak suka kencing merata-rata.

Nih lah member dier yg sama jugak. Tapi dier nih memang-lah pandai nak cakap banyak-banyak sampah. Haha !

After we finished the sparkling juice, here comes the main actor ! Tuborg awesome !

We were playing a game where there is 6 of us, placed 6 empty cups on the table and so, we have only six cards from num 1-6. Each person will draw a card and if the cup is empty, you can pour how much liquor/beer you want. If it's not empty, you hafta drink it. If all the cups are occupied or if you continuously draws 3 times which the cups are occupied, you hafta drink all the remaining cups ! A game where you will get drunk very fast !

See ! My 7 Zai is lovable ! So after the beer finished, we head to the next game. A popular TRUTH or DARE game ! Nasty nasty pics coming up right after this !!!

At first, me and Xian already kena. Haha imagine all you can on what's she doing. xD~ She actually kena that she hafta hug me and then facing the sky and tell me that she loves me. Can see from my face that I'm laughing my ass off.....Bwahahahahaha ! GOTCHA !

Next is Xemanta hafta kiss Gu wong's leg. Kesian jugak la that's why we put a tissue there. xD~

I pity her lor....always oso she kena one lol. You will see a lot of Xemanta's pics in this game !!

Pastu, these two fella pulak kena dare from me. Not a normal toothpaste, but an "icy cool" colgate toothpaste ! Haha !

Lain kali, jangan nak kenakan orang, see.....ownself kena balik ! And it has to be there for like more than half an hour ! Already felt numb by then. Takda rasa edi..LoL~

Another forced-by-all-the-monkeys-for-this-pose !!

See I told you, she keep kena that night ! They hafta catch each other and roll on the floor for 3 rounds~ xD !

Spotted again ! Kisses Gu Wong's forehead. =D

Ala, jangan la malu-malu nak cover your face !

Okay I'm getting bored of it. She kena non-stop ! Till a point where we stop the game. LoL~

This few pics here are darn darn funny ! They got dared by biting each other's hand and there must be a teeth print there ! Sakit I tell you~ Even she haven't even started to bite yet ! Look at his expression. Priceless !

Take it like a man la ! =.=

See the fella's balas dendam face. Hafta pose 1st huh before biting ! I found this pic damn funny and I'm still laughing ! Haha !

Another stupid fella. Haven't bite edi scared. [Stupid fella - Please......~~!! Don't bite me !!! I'm sorry !!! Don't so hard please !!! I can feel the pain already !!! >.< ]

After that one, we end the game and all of us were kinda tired. But the night is still young..so yeah, did some other interesting stuffs ! Traffic light !!

It all started from the guy's room. Wrestling !!! And I call tell you that it is really going more and more crazy on the other room~~~

BULLFIGHT !!!!

WRESTLING !!! And then suddenly..........................................................................

Me, Xian and Ron fell down. A pretty ugly one ! Haha !

We played until the bed split half and 3 of us fell down and in screaming pain while another one still on the bed screaming for pain too. I guess we accidentally hit his cock that's why he's holding it. Haha !

We're the HARDY BOYS ! Gu Wong there acting like a referee counting to three ! LoL~ [ Victim - Xian ]

After some resting, we decided to go to the golf club lying down there to see stars. Amazingly, we saw 3 shooting stars that night. I just can hope for the best =) [ Forgot to bring my slippers up, so I hafta kaki ayam to get my slippers. ]

Can you feel the pain ? Bengkak the next day. LoL !! And so, that was our amazing night. Loads of fun and kinda tired too. Wanted to get a good sleep but end up didn't get to sleep much. All Ron and Gu Wong punya pasal. We were sleeping together and I fall asleep first. But I woke up in the middle of the night bcuz my shoulder was aching until I really couldn't sleep. Plus those two fella are snoozing like buffalos. Seriously I couldn't take it. Plus they still can curse while sleeping. =.=.....That is not the important part, the guy above, is like an elephant ! I have to squeeze myself ! He's taken all my place. Wtf. Plus when he sneeze, OMG........all the saliva and everything came out like a fountain, splashes to my face I tell you, and I woke up, curse him like nobody's business (he couldn't hear a thing) and I went out to the living room to get some rest.

Finally some rest, but for awhile only. Sheesh~

When I woke up, I saw this poor little thing on the floor. Look at his expression, he's sooooo unhappy ! Who the hell throw him down and let him sleep on the floor ???!!!!

He is sooooooo DOWN !!! After everyone packed their things and so on, we checked out and head to the town for brunch.

Gai Lap Fan. Seriously super duper AWESOME !!! 6 of us, finished a whole chicken. Imagine that. And also 6 of us finished like ummm...60 Gai Lap Fan ? Fwoahhhh !

Sapu-ed all ! Cheap and satisfying meal !

Jalan-jalan cari makan. Heading to the museum~

Xellrene, Ron, Benji, Roro, Xem. [Photographer - Stupid Fella ]

Simply beautiful =)

Oi, bangun la ! Gua nak naik beca lah !

BenjiPon~

Inside the museum~ Spot my name !

Freaking hot country ! It was soon tea time and we head to the famous Ice-Kacang shop in Jonker Street.

Took some pictures on the way there~ =)

Sakai Xem......xD~

Desperately looking for a job ! Any vacancy for him guys ???

The Ice-Kacang there is famous for their superb Gula Melaka. You can't find any of these in KL !!

So before we head back to KL, stop by a temple for some praying.

I'm bringing sexy back......YEAH ! Them mother fuc*ers don't know how to act...YEAH !!

And so, we head back to KL on two cars.

Total of pics taken for this trip........to be exact...........557 pictures !!! Broke Record !!!!
Went down to Seremban to pass something for Xian's sis and then went for dinner in Seremban. Stop at shops to get siew pau and off we head back to KL. I swear to god I can sleep anytime while I was driving. Get myself awake, blast some songs, while contacting here and there cuz I'm rushing back to KL for a futsal game. After everything finished, went home, took a shower and then...........

BOGEL, KANGKANG, TIDUR !!!!!!

Laundry Bar. Tao Lounge @ Taman Tun

2008-09-17T05:00:00.004+08:00

It's been awhile since I last hang out with my fellow classmates.

A great outing indeed ! We should do these more ! =D

Was kinda weird when Mun Yee msg me and ask for a gathering randomly.

When I asked who's going, she just answered "All of them going la..Takkan we two "chang toi kiok meh ?" Like duh.......

So off we head to Laundry picking up Brandon and Crystal on the way.

Great outing to update ourselves plus we had alot of FUN !

Guys, we didn't meet up for quite some time..all we do is just cheers with ais kosong ? =.=

All of us were very hungry especially me and Brandon. We can finish a horse seriously ! xD Still remember the jokes we had =)

Tempting stuffs I tell you ! We ordered the Smoked Salmon, Carbonara, and the Shrimp dunno what what. I couldn't remember the name. Food was awesome. I didn't get my hands on the Carbonara cuz they finish it up..=.=

Girls I tell you, are even worse than men nowadays. We men sitting down there talking business stuffs while the girls busy-ing watching " sex education ". Plus it's in public area. Dare to watch but don't dare to show. Haha !

Not long after that, decided to head to Bamboo in Taman Tun for a second round. Reached there and it was soooo packed that we decided to change bar. Funny thing is we saw a fat woman dancing in Bamboo moving her ass left and right to the max !

Decided to try 42 Below Passion Fruit. A killer liquor I tell you as you would only taste nothing but passion fruit like Bacardi Apple. If you have liquor that doesn't taste like it, you're gonna be gone in no time. Not a bad one actually, girls should have a try. And always drink liquor with beer, you'll get high and drunk faster. That's why I've ordered them a bucket of Carlsberg. All of them went home walking left and right. Ngek ngek. And yeah about Carlsberg, I wonder why they have a new tagline of " Probably the best bottle in the world". Weird line and it's not convincing. =.=

Krystel and Crystal. Two "shui zheng" glowing beside me. xD~ Decided to play some game with the liquor and someone went haywire ! Bwahahaha !

First it was Chris. The glass you're seeing is PURE 42 Below with Carlsberg and only ice. No mixer at all. It went pretty alright for him as he is a heavy drinker so no problem at all.

TIFFANY ! Totally goned ! She couldn't even finish the whole glass and there's Chris and me helping her to finish it. Bodoh la you. xD~

Soon after that, Mun Yee left as she has to drive home alone. Thanks for making this gathering. Good old times ! =)

And there goes all haywiring here and there. Not only us do that, all of us did ! Some even mouth to mouth. Daring here and there. Crazy giler babi !

We should do this more often. At first I was worrying that Brandon would felt bored cuz Jeremy is not there but no worries at all ! He got me and all bunch of others ! ( He would be bored cuz sometimes we would talk in Cantonese and not English. LoL )

That's all about that night and more to come ! Friday aight guys !

See you guys in Poppy on Friday night. =)

The man who can't be moved.

2008-09-12T13:28:00.002+08:00

Going back to the corner,
where i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag,
I’m not gonna move
got some words on cardboard
got your picture in my head
saying: if you see this girl can you tell her were i am
some try to hand me money
they don’t understand
I’m not broke I’m just a broken hearted man
i know it makes no sense
what else can i do
and how can i move on
when I’m still in love with you

Cos if one day you wake up
and find that your missing me
and your heart starts to wonder
were on this earth i could be
thinking maybe you’d come back here
to the place that we’d meet
and you’d see me waiting for you
on the corner of the street
so I’m not moving
I’m not moving

Police man says son you cant stay here
i say someone I’m waiting for if its a day a month or year
got to stand my ground
even if it rains or snows
if she changes her mind
this is the first place she will go

People talk about the guy
that’s waiting in on a girl
woooaa wooo
and i know who’s in his shoes
put a big hole in his world
ooooo

Maybe ill get famous for the man who cant be moved
and maybe you wont mean to but you’ll see me on the news
and you’d come running to the corner
cos you’ll know its just for you
I’m the man who cant be moved
I’m the man who cant be moved

Going back to the corner were i first saw you
gonna camp in my sleeping bag and I’m not gonna move

A song that somehow reflects my life.

Fell in love with it on the first time I got the song into my ears.

No matter how hard I try, it would still be the same.

It's gonna stay there all the time. Not even once it's not there.

So why bothering that it will go away ?

You can say I'm moving on, you can also say I'm not moving on.

Well, I don't quite know actually.

I don't know what's within me as well.

I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't even know what is wrong and what is right. I'm confused.

Why does it have to be this way ? After everything that I have done, this is what I got for myself ?

Is this the way I live my life ?

I don't know.

One paper down.

Another paper on this coming monday.

Wish me luck.

Just a very short one~

2008-09-04T15:48:00.002+08:00

Hey everyone !!

Days has been kinda hectic lately..

Plus exam is around the corner...

Opps not around the corner, my EXAM is tomolo ! God damnit !

Will update soon aight~

Take care everyone~ =)

To make her love me ?

2008-08-21T04:18:00.003+08:00

You waved your hand and it was done
So let it be and there it was
A mountain, so high, it broke through, the sky
A canyon, so deep, it'll bring a man to his knees

[Chorus]
I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true
You've made the heavens and the stars
Everything, come on how hard
Could it be, To make her love me?

I've said some things I shouldn't have
Tried everything to win her back
I'm human, I messed up, Is she gone?, Are we done?
Forgiveness, another chance, that's all I want, it's in your hands

[chorus]
I've seen what you can do
I've seen you make miracles and hopeless dreams come true
You've made the heavens and the stars
Everything, come on how hard
Could it be, To make her love me?

[Chorus]

To make her love me
To make her love me (oooo)

Came across this song from my friend's blog. The first time I listen to it, with the lyrics as well, tears flowed. In fact, it's still flowing right now.

Every single line of it, every single word of it, is so true and totally reflects my life.

You waved your hands, and I know, it's gonna stay like this. Like a canyon so deep, it's does really bring me down to my knees. I know you've tried your very best, in fact, more than that. But all I get is hopeless dream come true. You were my heaven and my stars, every single thing we went through was so hard I could barely imagine how hard was it, but still, why it is so hard for you to fall in love with me ? Yes I've said things that I shouldn't. I tried everything I could to win you back. Human make mistakes, I'm a human too and I made my mistake. And you're gone. Only that single mistake, would change so many things around. It does come out from me but deep inside my heart, I don't mean it. Mistakes mistakes mistakes. All I need is forgiveness, and another chance. But I know, I won't have another. Unless miracle happens, it's all depends on you. You know you mean a lot to me, you know I can't go on like this, you know I'm suffering, this is the only fact that I can never face it. Slowly crawling up ? Bullshit. I know myself the best. It's been more than a month yet I'm still like this. What the hell am I waiting ? I am waiting for something that wouldn't come. How the heck am I gonna face the faceless days ? Where is all my friends when I need them the most ? None is replying my messages. Damnit. You have many friends around, who could take care of you. There's no worries that you would not be okay. After all, the one who received the message would be the one that hurt the most. If you were me, you will know how bloody unsecure I felt and why does those words came out from me accidentally. People make mistakes accidentally sometimes. This could mean that if that someone does make a mistake in the future, you will do the same thing to that someone ? Think. I know you're decisions are tight. I can't do shit about it. Yes I was once the light, the stone, the protective gear, the comfort zone. In that moment, I have position. I did try my best but, I didn't get the best of you. Someone else does. If you know me well, you would know what I mean of this and you wouldn't simply judge on what I've said on this. Every ounce of me we're given to you. Not only you closed a lot of doors. I did the same thing. All that I've wished for, vanished in front of me just in the blink of an eye. I couldn't believe it ends so fast. People could wait for years, so do I. It's just the matter that do I have another chance to wait. Sigh.

The Number 13

2008-08-18T03:32:00.002+08:00

This lil number over here, reminds me of ALOT of stuffs.

This number over here, has been following me since I was born. It is indeed my favourite number.

There are other special numbers to me but i chose not to flash back those numbers as I know, this is the most important number for me.

It has become a habit of mine thinking stuffs whenever I encounter this number every month. Not to say I didn't think on other days but I do think alot on this special day. It just past few days back, and it wasn't a very good day for me.

There are good things and bad things happened on this particular date. For your information, my birthday falls on this date, May 13th. This year, on my birthday, it was a very very special birthday for me. I was smiling every single second of it. I thought everything would be fine after this but it doesn't. All my hard work, all my faith, all my courage. Me believing that it would be worth it, stubbornness of not giving up, trying everything I could and most importantly, giving my 100%.

How do you felt when you gave your 100% and it doesn't bloom ? You even tried when you know the chance is merely 0.1%. I'm sure some of you have encountered this part of life and some of you haven't. It's my first time giving 100%, and I got to know that things are never gonna work anymore.

Yes, I know I need to get back up from this all by myself, and it's not an easy step to get up. If you have AIDS, you're gonna die. There's no way and there's no medicine that could cure you. Even if you got up, you would not be the one you used to be. It's gonna be different, might be good, might be bad. God knows.

As for me, I'm going to the bad side. Not a change on the outer side, but a huge difference on the inner side. Though I'm going into the bad side, but there's something good about it. I learn to see things differently, think about every corner before making a decision. This is what I gained after having so much stuffs happening to me previously. Still, I am slowly crawling up. Slower than a snail as I lost both my hands and legs.

Every night I lie down on my bed thinking that how could this happen. Every night I flash back alot of memories. Every night I mumble to myself. Every night I asked myself questions. Every night I hope for a friend who could give me a big warm hug. Every night, I would breakdown, and cry myself to sleep. When is this going to stop ? I don't know.

A friend of mine told me that she's enjoying her life over there and you're suffering. She's asking me to go on with my life and asked me to wake up.

Yes I am going on, but in a different way. But if you ask me to wake up, I still couldn't.

I have no idea what am I mumbling over here. It's just a sudden rush in me asking me to blog.

Will update when I can. Bye everyone =)

How's everyone doing ?

2008-08-08T22:07:00.004+08:00

Hey~~

How's everyone doing ? Those closed ones, I know how you guys are doing.

Those not so closed ones, hope that you're doing good =)

Hi-Bye friends, wanna get closer ? Lol..

Clubbing friends, remember to call me ;)

Bastards ? Strangers that's pissing me off ? Go to hell.

I'm doing fine on the outside. Inner side ? Hmm not so...
Well, lots of things changed since few weeks back. Life changed, habit changed, everything changed completely. A total whole new world for me...again.

Weeks has been kinda hectic for me. Running here n there, having fun here n there. Hardly been at home nowadays, due to some stuffs. I'm just treating my home like a hotel. Came back bath, change, out, back, sleep and out.

Ever felt before that things are just gonna stay this way ? No matter you like it or not, it's just gonna stay like that till a time where you would be a totally different person, not the person that you know yourself in the past. Your perceptions towards things and people would change, the way you judge people would differ, and also, you are more careful towards everything that you do and decide. This is my second time feeling like this, and it's much more different than the first time. People just get more and more mature don't they ?

Some people see me as I'm a very childish person, and some just see me a very matured person and tend to seek advice from me. What for giving people advice when you don't listen to people's advice yourself ? Times like this would just make me shut my mouth. Not to say I'm cruel, but I'm nowhere to judge the situation when I can't handle mine myself.

I know for a fact that I can't get over it no matter what. It's just gonna stay here, like a tattoo, it's gonna stay there no matter you like it or not, even if you tried to wipe it off, you would only get scars. No matter how much people trying to give me advice, pour me with laughters, giggles and stuffs like that, I would still be the same when no one is around me. So, why worry that things gonna be better when you know that it's not gonna be 100% ?

There are things in life where you just have to deal with it. Face the fact. I know I couldn't wake up. I'm still dreaming, hoping, wishing and whatever you can mention. Slap me, punch me, screw me whenever you see I'm not okay. "No fuck, no wake up." I found the quote quite funny yet so true. Sometimes you just have to deal with things that you can't deal it yourself. You know that it's merely possible, yet you still hanging onto it. Once everything's gone, it's like, " Yeah you deserve it, told you not to hang on on the first place".

People always say, you deserve someone better and some say, there is still a whole bunch of jungle out there. What if I tell you, the one I found is the one I could never find it anymore in other places ? Trees are green in color, the one I found is full with colors. Do you find colorful trees outside ? No you don't. It's there once, but not now anymore. It's hard to believe that you found a colorful one at this age. I tried to hold on to it, waters it everyday, keeping it beautiful as always, make sure that it's healthy, even if there were someone out there whose trying to cut down the whole jungle, I would still be there to protect that lil precious tree.

I've learnt alot from this incident of mine. It's something that I would remember for the rest of my life, telling my kids and wife about it. Maybe if there's still hope, I wouldn't need to tell my wife about it. Lines that makes me ponder about. Everything would be kept in words, in minds, in papers, in pictures.

There is one thing I could do to fix myself. That's the last thing I wanna do. And doing that won't do any good to others too. I know people are concerned about me. I know you guys do. Thanks, I appreciate it.

When you're dreaming with a broken heart.

2008-07-26T00:56:00.003+08:00

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?
Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part

~In The End~

2008-07-17T16:29:00.002+08:00

(It starts with)
One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time

All I know
time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away

It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on / but didn’t even know
Wasted it all just to
Watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing / I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind / I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)

Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried / it all fell apart
What it meant to me / will eventually / be a memory / of a time when I tried so hard

And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

Questions in my head

2008-07-11T20:15:00.002+08:00

I had a lot of questions in my head asking me.

Questions that I couldn't answer myself.

Probably it's not easy to get those answers too.

If only I could get those answers...

Could it be that nothing's gonna change ?

Would you catch me if I had to fall ?

I would give my everything, just to hear you say...

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?

If only, you could hear the sounds of a heartbreak.

She's so hard to hold, but I can't let go

It hurts so bad but feels so good

I missed you and things weren't the same

It's harder to get through the days

I never want to see you unhappy, I thought you'd want the same for me.

I wish you were here with me tonight

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you

Thinking of the times we shared

No one knew all the pain I went through

Nobody else to turn to

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need

I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through

Without a sense of confidence I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take

Wished for you so hard

I never wished for anything but you....

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at your door

I know I tend to get so insecure

If I could just find a way to make it so that you were right here, right now.

So I'll just hang around and find some things to do to take my mind off missing you

Would you be there to love, to be with me ?

I don't wanna make it worse, just wanna make us work

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

You know by now I want it more than anything

Wall's Cornetto Love Sparks Concert~

2008-07-03T15:58:00.006+08:00

I was involved in a very huge HUGE project of Wall's last Saturday 280608. It's one of the biggest project ever done by Wall's. Usually it's all about selling ice cream but this one...a concerto !

The concert itself ate up more than RM1 mil and it's our job to make it smooth and steady.

Working under the hot sun, followed by rain, muds and all. Also carrying stuffs here and there, last-minute-driving-out to get stuffs that is missing. Man I'm soooo gonna submit all my receipts to my office soon !

Working under the hot sun..>.< ! Didnt manage to capture a pic while it's raining cuz I'm super heavily BUSY !

The stage by noon.

Around 4.30pm, all the promoters were here to help up and to standby on the entrance, security, VIPs, VVIPs, Media, and etc. I was in charge of the backstage. Getting whatever all the artists and dancers need.

The stage by night time. Pretty ! Notice the BIG W on the stage..Nice ! Main attraction was Dafi & Gita as they are the official singers for "Dua Menjadi Satu". Not a bad song tho. Quite nice =)

Gita~ All the way from Indonesia to perform.

The emcee for the night. I forgot his name =.=

Mawi....He's is one ego fella.

The band who brought you "Itu Kamu" Estranged !

At around 11+..Finally got to rest for awhile and took some pics with some of the dancers.

And after that, all the artists were up in the stage to sing the official song of Cornetto Royale advertisement. Finish everything around 12+, got home around 1+ and KONG !

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Almost a year passed. Some of you who knows me well would know what is the one year about. I guess, only a few would know. Many things happen since then, things that I thought it wouldn't happen to me. From happy moments to understanding to time to sad moments to frustration to emoness to total silence to breakdowns to sacrifices to whatever stuffs that happen. A year that changes my perspective of looking into things, trying out new stuffs, daring myself, and most importantly, a challenge that I would never forget for the rest of my life.

For those who went through one of their hardest challenge, you guys are strong and be proud of yourself. Get ready for other challenges in life as they keep coming. For those who has not been through any hard challenge, wait for it. Everyone will at least experience it once. For me, my pathway is like every step I move forward, there's no turning back. When I turn back, I would see spikes on the ground which is impossible for me to step on as I appreciate my life much. I always ask my friends to be strong, to think on different ways. But did I ?

Many of my friends ask me to think thrice before doing something. I can tell you that I thought countless times. For those who called me stupid, no offence but you are worse than me. Some of you are nowhere to judge me. I'm chasing the needs of my life and that's not stupid. Those who sit back and enjoy life without doing anything, that's stupid / dumb.

As a saying, shooting star only come once. When they are about to leave from your eyesight, it's up to you whether to chase it for your dream come true or just leave it pass you by and then let other person to encounter it and let that person make his/her wish. I am still chasing my shooting star. I have no idea whether I'm just in the beginning of chasing it, or I'm in the middle of chasing it, or I'm almost there. Sometimes I can feel that I'm almost there, so near yet so far. I got to grab it for once, just the edge of it and my grips weren't good enough to hold the shooting star in my hands.

One day, you was driving happily and then suddenly you met an accident. Your 1st reaction was...."omg...how could this happen". Why you drove so fast, why are you so careless, why are you so reckless and why are you so stupid. You've been given your license and you should have drove carefully and control yourself and the car. All you did is to come out with an accident. After the accident, you need to repair it in order for the car to move again. Not only the car, you need to becareful too in the future. For the car to be back on road, you need to check everything is perfect before driving it again. For the car being perfect again, it need time. The next time you're back on track, you need to know the car's limit, and you need to know your limit too. Don't go over the limit or else you will have a huge accident again. One accident is enough, another one would do a total damage to the car and it won't be able to move again.

That's all I gotta say for now....

Busy days ahead..Laundry tonight, Redbox tomorrow midnight, and Poppy on Saturday night and Sunday would be a happy night I suppose =)

* Darin Zanyar - Everything But The Girl *

2008-06-13T18:07:00.004+08:00

A friend of mine sent me the song just minutes ago....

I didn't pay attention to the song much until I search for the lyrics..

When I read those lyrics...Ohh boy...

It reflects my life so much and so true.

Lots of lines from the song is like what is happening to me. Soooooo true....

* Darin Zanyar - Everything But The Girl *

When I saw you I knew you were the one
I want to orbit you like you're the sun
But let me know before I come undone
Am I the one for you

I'm like a puzzle with a missing piece
I got a car but didn't get the keys
And only you can set my mind at ease
So what am I to do

I have everything but the girl I want, it's sad but true
And everything but the love I need to make it through
And everytime I look into your eyes, thats when I realize
Just how much I love you

Some say lady luck is on my side
And that my life has been an easy ride
But they don't know how many times I cried
Cause I'm nothing without you

I have everything but the girl I want, it's sad but true
And everything but the love I need to make it through
And everytime I look into your eyes, thats when I realize
Just how much I love you

I don't know how long I can keep it up
I need a sign to make it through
You gotta tell me now, you gotta let me know
So what am I, what am I to do

I have everything but the girl I want, it's sad but true...
And everything but the love I need to make it through
And everytime I look into your eyes, thats when I realize
Just how much I love you

Feel free to ask me for the song if you would want to listen to it =)

* The day that I thought it would be, didn't came through. *

* Guys Drinking Session *

2008-06-10T15:10:00.004+08:00

*Just a short post on 050608*

It was a thursday so it's either drinking session or clubbing session..xD~

There was plans for clubs on that day but, don't feel like going so crashed at my friend's place to drink as his family went umm....Cameron ?

Yeahhh...so no one was at home and we can do whatever we want ! =D

The 3 bottles we had that day. Martell V.S.O.P, Johnnie Walker's Swing, and Bombay Sapphire. I just had the Martell as there's something happen to the other two bottles. Some disaster happened that day too. Not to be mention here ! Oh yeah btw, saw a maggi there ? It's mine =D. I was hungry so couldnt help but eat before drink >.<

*CHEERS*

There were 5 of us. Brandon, Ujin, Dinesh and Rizal and me =). That's Rizal btw.

Was playing truth and dare and gawddd....Lots of true spilled and a lil dared too. ( Now I Know !!!! Bwahahahaha ! ) Though we had lil dared, but all the dares are all nastayyyyyyyyy ones*~! Like really really nasty ! xD~ You can see how the way Dinesh act in the picture above. Obviously he's darn drunk ! He's like stripping and also showing his butt off ! Haha ! And that's Brandon behind him asking him to drink more. He tends to get more and more funny when he's drunk ! =D

I couldn't get drunk on that day though i drank quite alot. I wonder why..Hmmmmm....

Ujin was wasted for sure..Couldnt walk a straight line ! Lol..! Dinesh need not to say anymore. Rizal was tipsy and was complaining that a few more sips will make him vomit. I guess only Brandon and me are 100% OKAY that day. HIGH FIVE ! THEY SUCK BIG TIME !

That's basically what happened on that night. Nice hanging out like this with you guys after a long time ! =)

* I never want to see you unhappy*

*I cannot wake up in the morning, without you on my mind. I really do.*

Till then~!

xoxo*~!

Announcement !

2008-06-02T19:26:00.002+08:00

I know some of you all have problems viewing my blog due to my total white blankness of my background.

And also the color of my words are white too. That's why you all have to highlight the whole page to read.

This is because not everyone is using Mozilla Firefox as their main browser.

Those who are using Internet Explorer couldn't view my black background with some tribals at the side is because I have some problems with my HTML code.

I will try to fix this problem as soon as I can.

Till then~~~

xoxo~

So close, and still so far~

Taman Negara 232425M08

2008-05-30T16:36:00.017+08:00

Just got the pics from a friend of mine =)

So here am I to tell you ample of reasons why you guys should go and have a vacation in Taman Negara when you have the chance !

At least for me, I had a very good experience there. But for my friend Emilio, which I read his blog about his trip to Taman Negara, he don't quite seem to enjoy it =/. Maybe it's because of the place he is staying.

We took a journey for like 3-4 hours to reach there and of course we did take some pictures on the way there. Actually it's just me..xP~ One was driving, the other two were sitting behind playing with my Psp.

We reached there around 6+ in the evening and all of us are like dead tired. (Due to the excitement on the way there xD~)

We do have a "Night Walk" activity on the 1st day. But we didn't manage to take any pictures because my friend left the camera in his room. =.=..Aihs Aihs takpe ! takpe ! More chun pics coming up soon !

Basically on the 1st day, we are relaxing more than enjoying. Just because we have to charge up ourselves for the hectic day ! Gawddd...We had activities from sunrise to sunset. Buuuuuttttt...itchy me, couldn't sleep on the 1st day ! Slept around 5 something and woke up at 7 for breakfast !

The place we're staying =)

I just simply lurve this picture !

And this one too ! =D

All credits to my friend's excellent photography skills ;)

Was waiting for a few more of them before we head for out breakfast

So after breakfast, we head to our 1st activity which is "Canopy Walk". We need to take a boat to cross the river, and then walk through the jungle to reach there. Amazingly, there's a full signal in the jungle ! Oh well, Maxis rocks ! =D. I guess someone should know cause I'm texting you that time ! xD~

Dalam van tengah pergi ke jeti.

Look at my face ! Told you I'm sleepy..>.< ! Click to see my big mouth !

And still waiting for our tour guide to bring us across the river untillllll........

Ambik kau Haris ! Kena marah !

It's good to see them flying around wild rather than seeing them in cages. =) Our tour guide told us that this is his 2nd time seeing Hornbill this near to him after 5 years. I guess we're lucky huh !?

Hmm..I wonder what was i looking at...

Bamboos !

The pathway we took to Canopy Walk

I'm waaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy in front !

Even though we reached, we still have to wait as there is alot of pll queuing for it =S

Orang Monyettt !

We were waiting and waiting and waiting for our turn untilllllll......

ZzZZzZzzZZzZz...I slept for like an hour there ! But still..we have to wait for like 2 and a half hour for our turn.

Whyyy laaaa pll have to do that when I'm sleeping..=.= !! Not good taking pll's picture when they're sleeping ! Moreover we're in a jungle !! Lagi teruk !

Ppppppppffffffffffffffffffffffftttttttttttt.....

And then la finally our turn to go up !!

We have to like stop at stations to wait for the pathway to be empty. Overload of pll will make the pathway go swinging here and there and we might fall.

In case you guys don't know, I'm afraid of heights. =.=

Simply love nature ! =)

So after getting down from Canopy Walk, we cam-whored like 30 minutes there ? Oh well, actually we're kinda purposely cuz the tour guide made us wait for him earlier on, so it's payback time ! He was pissed and angry when we got down ! Padan Muka !

Lots and lots of pose coming up !

We actually took pics there using tripod..=D

Sesated Shu Ying doing flower pose ! xD~

Poser Maut !!!

Amazing Race new season coming soon !

We are actually rushing back to our hotel for lunch time because we have to go to Gua Telinga in like 15 minutes !? So yeah, we delayed that to like 30-45 minutes but we still can make it luckily =)

On the way to Gua Telinga

I wonder how tall this tree is =/

The tree is freaking HUGE !!

Now can you imagine how HUGE the tree is ? Our tour guide says this tree already exist since the dinosaur world until now. Amazing huh ?!

This is the entrance to Gua Telinga. I know......It doesn't look like an entrance at all. I thought the cave would be like those in Batu Caves but it's not. You couldn't imagine how hard it is to go through the whole cave. You have to slide, squeeze, climb, crawl and also be readyyyyyy forrrrrr......

BATS !! They're everywhere around you ! And the best thing is they fly just above your head ! Not only that, you have to climb and all touching their shits ! Though they have cave water there, but it's still the same, you still wash your hands with their.....Eeeewwwwwwwwwww !

Thousands of them ! And we also spot a very HUGE toad inside the cave. It's as big as your head ! I'm serious ! And also you can't look into the toad's eyes because if you do, the toad will pee on you and you can go BLIND straight ! Creeeeepy...~

Gawd...That was one hella cave ! It's not easy to get through the whole thing. We look all wet and clean in front right ? Wait till you see the back of us !

Taadaaaaaaaa....!!! Click to enlarge to see our filthy butts ! xD~

Farid the tour guide !! He's is so good and funny ! A better tour guide than the previous one !

Those are not dirts on my butt...Those are bat shits !!

So after the cave, we head to see the Orang Asli. They are extremely dark like Africans and they have those super curly hairs. But some of them look like Malays too. There are two territories of Orang Asli there. One is not very civilized cuz they don't WEAR anything at all. I even saw one of them with Afro hairstyle ! xD~ The one we went is those which are quite civilized already. They know how to talk in Malay and the funny part is, when they are struggling to light a fire using THEIR way, one of them actually took out their lighter to light it ! Haha ! But all of us were staring at him so he put it back into his pocket..xD~

Fen : Oi Ben ! Let me try la ! I wanna see inside la !

Ben : Waittt laaaa..Pll haven finish seeing you wanna see already~ Plus now you transform to Kelawar edi..oso kenot see anything laaa !!
Fen : Wey you damn bad la !

Ben : Chill la yorrrr...Let you see oso you kenot hunt anything..xD~

Fen : *runaway and cries* Bwahahahaha !

This is the way they light a fire =)

Taaaaadaaaaa....after like 15-20 minutes. It's not easy. Need a lot of strength to pull the "rotan" to light it up.

She look extremely funny here ! Haha ! Told you you CANT hunt ! xP~

My turn ! My turn !!

*drum rollsssssss..............*

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I hit Tweety's *ehem ehem* on my first shot ! Okayyy....~~!! I'm off for hunting !!

SEE !!! He really look like an African !

Forgot to tell you something. The kids there are also extremely SHY. Like really really shy. We ask them to take a picture with us but they ran and hide till god knows where..=.=..Too bad..=/

We were all wet when we reach our rooms cuz on the way back Farid asked me.......

Farid : Korang nak balik dengan basah ke kering ???

Ben : Ermmmmm.......

Farid : *whoooooooshhhhhh*

Ben : I'm all wet !!!!

And there goes the war ! All of us are like just finish swimming. Good thing too =D Wash away all the bat shits..xD~

Pretty hectic activities huh on the 2nd day ? But it's all worth it ! =) Had a very very good experience. By night we were all playing truth and dare and slept our night off to get ready for one last activity on the next day.....

My first time experiencing PaintBall.

Though we had alot of fun in it, we come out with alot of bruises and scratches all over our body. Plus I think i got bitten by some insects on my lower part of my tummy and also my thigh. It's still freaking itchy until today ! =.=

Supposingly heading to Bukit Tinggi for dinner but we reached early plus there's some aftershock there on that day itself around 2-3pm..=S. So we head to Gohtong Jaya to lepak lepak awhile before heading for dinner.

Soooooo...started laaa again all the cam-whoring sessions

Benji (King), Adrian and Nick (My Chair), Lawrence (My "tai kam" xD~), Pris, Fen, Ying, and Carol ( My "guai feis" =D)

Bwahahahaha ! ( Mind me, infected by Kristine's laugh ! Bwahahahaha ! )

Yesh I know we're crazy~~!!

The next Lidi Panda...not KungFu Panda..xD~

Testing my skills at first..=P

Yeah..I eventually fly back to my house ! Bwahahahaha !

Byez~~!!

Results !!! Arghh !!

2008-05-29T10:47:00.003+08:00

You don't see Benji Chan awake this early unless it is to.....

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FREAKING CHECK HIS RESULTS !!!

GAWDDDDDDDD.........

*current emotion*

FREAKING NERVOUS !!!

since no one wish me good luck on my results..I'll just...

*grabs 3 joshstick*

*pai pai pai pai pai pai pai pai*

Good Luck Benji !!!

No I'm not New !

2008-05-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

Yes I'm not new to blogging aight. I've moved from my old blog which is www.xanga.com/bcoolpals

If you guys wanna view my old posts feel free to browse through my old blog ;)

The reason I wanna change from Xanga to Blogspot is :

1) The layout on my Xanga sucks ! And I'm lazy to re-do the layout so why not just change to Blogspot ?

2) It seems that Blogspot is more user-friendly than Xanga =)

3) I have 6 months holiday at the moment and not working YET..So I guess i'll just play around with Blogspot first ;)

4) Most of my friends are using Blogspot so YEAH~~

So let's start with my very first post !

Benji Chan's 21st Birthday !

Daymn I feel old now ! =(

My wish for you*~!

Oh well..Seriously, for the first time in my life, I felt that I'm old actually. Come to think about it, I'll turn 22 next year ! Holy cow ! Sheesh~~

I can consider that I had the most memorable birthday ever =). Though I had alot of huge huge birthday parties on my previous years, but.....this year's party (not only the party laaa actually..xD) is indeed the one that I will remember for the rest of my life =)

Thanks to those and also to that special someone who make it happen! ;)

Thomas Sabo necklace~! Thanks Mum !

Bacardi Big Apple from Jason~! Thx !

My Chocolate Chip Walnut cake from Secret Recipe =)

You can see how happy am I when they're singing xD~

Mua family ! Bro, Mum, Grandpa, Sis, Dad =)

Mr. Teoh Chuen Seng ! Friends for 21 years and still counting !

Melody Ng~! Things between us are beyond words can say =)

The so-called "F Bu 4" ~Tk, Nicky, Lawrence~

[ The 8 Ball gang ] Ryan, Justin, Magen, Thomas, and Jet

Teacher Tang Eu-Gin =D

The Sg-Longians !

The Wangsa-Maju-ians ~
Dinesh, Mike, Eu-Gin, Ujin, Jason, Brandon

Though you don't read my blog but your kid does look like you dude !

The heavy clubber and junior ! Jinn and Hui Xian

The noisy and the one who got the most shivers from PeterAnswers xD~
Joseph

The secondary skool gang ! We have alot of history ! =) Nicky, Jeanie, Chocolate, Tk, ShuYing, Lawrence, Pris, Adrian, YiZhi, Kumiko, and Leon.

Umm..I shall just call it the RojaK Gang..Haha ! Kyoro, Jason, Ron, and Jerry.

Coming soon in cinemas near you ! Ah Long Pte Ltd 2 starring Benji Chan

That was one hella night ! As there are too many pll around, I have to run down and up my condo to entertain all of em'

Some even complaining that I didnt entertain them.....Sorry !!

But i glad that they had fun in my party =) Due to overdose of PeterAnswers, everyone went home worrying that something bad will happen to them..xD~

In case some of you doesnt know what is PeterAnswers, simply logon to www.peteranswers.com to check it out. Any questions that you asked, Peter will answer and I can tell you that it's kinda spooky despite every single friend of mine that day screamed loudly in my place..Haha ! Oh well..to those who knows..Understand la kay !?

Celebrated my birthday again at Hulu Langat the other day. Thank you =)

Thanks fo the surprise cake ! You did a great job for the surprise =) Appreciate spending the whole night with you there. And I will remember that DAY for the rest of my life =))

The only picture that we both smiled ! Haha ! I guess you would remember that we didnt smile for all the pics..I wondeeerrr WHY..xD~

A mini-celebration with the Sg-Longians Flora, Melody and Kristine..=) I wonder why you guys are so emo on my birthday..=/

Won't be different but better =)

Next post coming up !!!

Trip to Taman Negara !
Emilio I have more chun pictures there than you !
You shall wait !!

STAY TUNED !!